Doubting God’s heart?

As I began planning this month’s post, I really felt a burden on my heart that someone needed to be reminded of God’s heart for them; of the fact that it is good and never changes. To be reminded and reassured of His goodness and the fact that He only wants the best for us. If God’s goodness towards you is something you’ve ever doubted or lost faith in, then this post is for you.

God’s goodness is something that, as Christians, we can know in theory in our minds but doubt deep down in our hearts. This is definitely something I have experienced in the past and even at times this month, all while knowing it is completely irrational. So here’s how I’ve dealt with those moments—with scriptures and encouragements… I hope it helps you.

1. First, know you’re not alone…

I’ll be the first to admit I’ve faced these moments. For me, moments of doubt around God’s heart for me have usually come following a series of intense storms or trials, and the ensuing lie of the enemy that if God’s heart towards me were truly good, He wouldn’t have allowed me to face those things, because they were almost ‘unnecessarily’ tough.

What I do in those moments of doubt is remind myself that God only allows us to go through trials that will grow and mature us for our own good, so that we can face life ahead and become more resilient, and also develop character. He protects us from all the others. And for me I’ve seen that the tougher the trial, generally the more intense and engrained the subsequent growth, maturity and character development. I also gain from a test more credibility, for when I share it as a testimony, as well more empathy towards others who may face similar trials.

2. Understand the source of your doubts

Speaking to some of my Christian mentors last weekend, I raised this topic of doubting God’s heart. As we got talking, one of them highlighted how this lie that God doesn’t really want what’s best for us, or want to protect us, or even love us, is an age-old one that the enemy has been using since the Garden of Eden. It’s the exact same lie that he used to trick Adam and Eve into eating the forbidden fruit. He asked them, ‘did God really say…?’.

Likewise, when we doubt God’s goodness, the enemy is essentially asking us, ‘did God really mean it when He said He loves you and wants nothing but your good?’ Sometimes, just remembering who is behind the doubts we are facing is enough to shake us into proclaiming God’s truth against them. For instance, we know that God is not a man that He should lie (Numbers 23:19) and His promises—including of His unending and unconditional love for us—are absolutely true. We can use these truths against the lies of doubt, knowing His Word is a firm foundation. Once we clock we’re under spiritual attack, we can wage spiritual war using the Word, which the Bible says is sharper than a two-edged sword. This helps us out of the rut of doubt.

3. Meditate on scriptural truths

On Sunday, Mum and I visited a well-known church in our area of London, and had a brilliant time there. During the service, just before the sermon began, the pastor had a Word from God that he wanted to share with those who were feeling downtrodden. The scripture he referenced was Lamentations 3: 21-25, which reads:


Yet I still dare to hope

    when I remember this:


The faithful love of the Lord never ends!

    His mercies never cease.


Great is his faithfulness;

    his mercies begin afresh each morning.


I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance;

    therefore, I will hope in him!”


The Lord is good to those who depend on him,

    to those who search for him.

Here we are reminded by an author who, off the back of sharing that he has faced many trials, like many of us, reminds us that God is absolutely faithful and good. And it’s also helpful to remember in those moments of doubt that, if you’re looking to God for breakthrough, it’s not doubt that moves Him, but faith. No amount of complaining, desperation or doubt moves God. Faith alone, plus the belief in His goodness, is what brings about breakthrough (Hebrews 11:6 tells us that ‘it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.’).

4. Shift your perspective

Naïve faith believes that God’s love for us is measured by how few trials He puts us through. Mature faith, meanwhile, knows that God’s love for you is not symbolised by Him never allowing us to go through trials. In fact, in parenting, allowing a child to grow in resilience under caring protection is arguably more a sign of love than smothering, spoiling and sheltering them entirely. And Proverbs reassures us that God, the ultimate loving parent, allows us to grow because He loves us as a Father (Proverbs 3:11-12). So if you’re being taken through seasons that test you, be encouraged to, instead of concluding that tests mean God’s heart for you isn’t all good, conclude that they show He loves you so dearly and preciously that He desires to grow your strength and character, to better equip you for life ahead.

I really hope these verses and revelations help someone out there who’s facing this right now, and provide some food for thought. It is absolutely normal for the human Christian to have seasons where faith is truly tested and the enemy tries to attack with lies about God’s pure love. Rest assured that He is good, and His desire is to strengthen you while keeping you ever safe in the shelter of His uncompromisable love.

Be encouraged. ♥️

See you in August,

Imani x

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